Robin and I are preparing to return to the US in November for a furlough of at least several months. September was the four year anniversary of our move here to South Africa and together with our board of directors we have decided that now is the time for us to return to US for at least a time. As an organization Two Tunics needs to evaluate its work since it was conceived in 2004. We need to seek God for his plan for both the future of the organization and role of Mike and Robin in the ministry.
As we are preparing to talk with our board, churches and other supporters about the work of the last four years we have been thinking about how to measure and report what has been accomplished. What is success and where have we seen it? What is failure and what have we hopefully learned from it? What lasting impacts have been made in the lives of people? How has God been glorified?
The temptation is to measure success and results as the world does, with numbers. How many AIDS patients accessed ARV treatment? How many children were fed? How many teachers were trained and creches (preschools) built? How many people came to know Jesus as their Lord and savior? How can we effectively communicate to our supporters the value of the investment they have made in the work of Two Tunics these last four years? What was the return on their dollar? How do we justify that all our time and activity and separation from family has been worth it?
Then thankfully, this morning God gave me a fresh perspective on our upcoming furlough. I was re-reading the final chapter called The Goal of the Gospel in Watchman Nee's book "The Normal Christian Life". In it Nee is commenting on the story in Mark 14 of the woman who anointed Jesus with expensive perfume. Nee wrote these words.
"We could labor and be used to the full: but the Lord is not so concerned about our ceaseless occupation in work for him. That is not his first object. The service of the Lord is not measured by tangible results. No, my friends, the Lord's first concern is with our position at his feet and our anointing of his head. ... Often enough the giving to him will be in tireless service, but he reserves to himself the right to suspend service for a time, in order to discover to us whether it is that or himself, that holds us. "
I pray that God will use the time of our furlough to discover to me what it is that holds me. Is it my service for Him or the Lord Himself?
